Monday, May 26, 2014

My Home Birth Story

It was about a couple months before my due date that I had a strong feeling that I wanted to do a home birth this time around.  At one of my regular prenatal appointments when I was around 36 weeks pregnant I told Heather my midwife that I had changed my mind and that I would like to do a home birth after all. I talked to Nathan about it and although he was slightly reluctant he was supportive to give it a try as long as I was comfortable with it.  At one time I was really against this idea as I was once a labor and delivery nurse and had a rare experience that frightened me about the idea.

Once I made this decision to have my baby at home I became super excited and I never looked back...It just felt right, it felt natural.  Some reasons for this decision included the fact that for my first two labor and deliveries I was very...very... fast...and the ride to the hospital was always very painful and a little crazy.  I went drug free for the first two births so I knew I could do it...I was also anxious about who I could leave Todd and Ethan with on a whim as my sister and mom were planning to attend the birth like they did for Ethan and Todd...I also thought it would be special to have the boys close by so they could be apart of the experience to some degree...The thought of being in my own room, surrounded by my family after having the baby was very exciting...I was never a big fan of being alone in the hospital (even if it was for a short time) after having the baby. And I think my trust and comfort with the midwifes has developed into a very strong trusting relationship where I am confident in their expertise and abilities... I was blessed to have two wonderful previous deliveries under midwifry care.

The last month before delivery I was nesting quite a bit trying to get the house ready and prepare for my home delivery.  With the help of my mom and sister I switch rooms around upstairs...I moved the nursery to the bigger room and painted it a calming ocean blue color...I got bunk beds for the boys and painted their room a darker blue color.  The midwives had a list of stuff needed for the home birth that I packed up in a box and had it ready to go. I got new comfy sheets to dress the bed in for after the delivery and I unpacked and washed all the newborn clothing.

These pictures were taken the day before I had baby Colton

The boys loved to kiss and hug the baby in my tummy!  "Brother love"



I had a midwife home visit about 6 days before my due date and at this visit I decided to have a stretch and sweep done to my cervix.  I was told I was 4 cm after this.  I did this in my previous two labors and it seemed to put me into labor within a day or two...I got it done a little earlier this time and didn't go into labor until 5 days later on March 14th. It started with me losing my mucous plug, followed with stronger braxton hicks contractions...Which continued to increase in intensity...I could tell soon after that I was in the early stages of labor.  This experience was way different this time as I never really had an obvious early labor.  On March 14th in the evening my contractions started to get a little stronger and more regular.  I put the boys to bed, Nate got home from work around 1130ish pm and we went to bed...Although I would have been happy to get the show on the road I was not certain that it was going to happen that night.  I told Nate we should go to bed and get some rest because "it"
 would probably happen soon.  


Last shot being pregnant...Taken by Nate when he got home from work

However after laying down I was having a tough time sleeping...I felt warm and woosy...My hormones were doing a number on me and I just felt weird...I could not recall this feeling in my past labors so I was a little confused as to what was going on. I was pretty sure this baby was on his way.  Ethan seemed to be able to sense something because he kept waking up and asking for me to lay with him...As I was laying with him one of the times I started to count contractions and they were coming every 10-15 mins and were getting stronger to the point that it was getting uncomfortable to stay laying down...I wanted to get up and walk around.  I ended up calling Shayna at 4 am to come over and lay with Ethan...It's so nice she lives only 4 houses down.  Around 4:30am I woke up Nate for some company because I could not sleep and was now sure we would be having this baby soon.  Nate and I hung out and counted contractions, I had a bath and then a shower. I called my mom to let her know it would be happening soon around 5 am...She arrived about an hour later.  My contractions were coming every 3-6 mins when my mom got there and were strong but I could still talk and walk. I just kept saying to Nate that "It is so different this time around" ...I was not use to the waiting game...The past two labors I usually progressed from the "am I in labor stage" to full on "kill me now" stage in minutes.  At about 7 am we called the midwives to let them know what I was doing and also called the Campbells to see if they could come over to help with the boys while I had the baby upstairs as Todd had woke up just after 7 am.




I took a couple snap shots of our room just after we got the bed prepared for the home birth


When Alison and Avery got here the boys woke up and we were all hanging out in my living room.  I was walking up and down the stairs in between contractions trying to make them stronger.  Todd wanted me to carry him around so I did that too.  The contractions were painful but I was use to much worse so I was curious as to what my cervix was doing.  The midwives got there at 8 am and Nate and I went upstairs with them.  They checked me and said I was 6cm and that my cervix was thinned out.  Right after they checked me it kicked me into full fledged labor...Literally...Nate and I were in our ensuite bathroom in our bedroom with Nora Jones playing in the background...Nate was really sweet helping through my contractions...A good coach and rubbed my lower back just perfectly.  At times the pain was crazy but I was really happy to finally feel the real pain...I knew it would be over soon and I would be holding my little fella.  The contractions were coming every 1-2 mins and shortly later I felt like I needed to push...Heather my midwife was very calming and told me to just go with it...She said at some point my body will push involuntary and that was ok...Just let her know.  Once they were set up in the bedroom I got on the bed to have the baby...By this time Shayna and Mom were in the room.  I pushed twice "really", "really" hard and my beautiful baby boy came into this world and was placed on me.  I remember on the second push my contraction ended just as I was crowning...This is a good thing as it stretched me slowly as I had to wait for the next contraction to fully get the baby out however it was such an intense scary feeling...It gave the saying ring of fire a new crazy meaning to me.

After the baby came out at 9:34am I felt instant relief and happiness...Alison and Avery brought Ethan and Toddy in to see baby Colton...They were so cute and excited to meet their new brother.  Ethan layed on the bed next to me and touched Coltons hands and kissed his cheeks...He was such a proud big brother and was taking it all in. It was a very special moment for us all.  Nate called his dad to let him know Colton was here and they came over for a little visit.

I got to have all the skin to skin time I wanted and I nursed my baby right away.  It was so nice...I had no tearing so no stitches.  I was able to get up and have a bath with Colton which was so amazing...Colton was so comfortable in the bath...It felt good to get cleaned up so quickly and back into my bed which was all cleaned up by my midwives. Nate brought me a big glass of OJ with a toasted bagel and some yogurt which I ate while cuddling and feeding my new little man.  In the afternoon my mom took Colton downstairs, Shayna took the boys out for a bit, Nate went to the gym and I took a nap...Dad came over while I was sleeping to meet his new grandson.

We had an amazing home birth experience...It was so beautiful...The sun was shining in my window that morning as my baby was born...A true miracle and I couldn't be more blessed.  























The water is yellow because the midwifes brewed up a special bath herbal soak that is good for healing and soothing
Colton just loved his bath...To this day he instantly is calm with the sound of water or being in water

All cleaned up and ready to snuggle




Ethan is such a sweet little boy...He just loves his brother so much!



Grandma and Colton





Colton we love you so much...
We are beyond blessed to have been given 3 healthy beautiful boys...
Love you forever baby boy

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Our first family beach day of the year

 ...I am back and excited to record some of our family memories...

Today after church we headed to Grand Bend for some much needed fun in the sun...
One of our families most favorite things to do is going to the beach...
Ethan and Todd had so much fun playing in the sand,
picking up driftwood,
going in the very cold water
and running barefoot in the sand...

After some playing on the beach we went for a beautiful walk to look at the cottages...
Ethan on the bike and Todd in his green car that we push...
Nate and I always love walking through the cottages...
We both want to buy a cottage one day and 
this walk is the perfect time to dream about this.

And if we get a cottage we will also need a boat...Oh man maybe one day!

Love seeing my boys having so much fun today...
Before coming home we got ice cream cones and
took a walk down to the playground at the main beach...

We are really looking forward to our annual 2 weeks at the cottage 
with the Boland side of the family at the end of July...
Ethan has been talking about our cottage vacation all year...










Thursday, February 13, 2014

My Sweet Little Toddy


 
It is hard to believe that my sweet Toddy boy is two years old…
Over the past little while I have really noticed a change
in his little body and intellectual development…
For the longest time he “still looked like a baby and sounded like a baby” to me….
It is so strange how one day I can look at my baby and all of a sudden realize he is really big...
Not a baby anymore but a beautiful little toddler.
 
It is so awe inspiring to watch my babies grow and mature…
Sometimes the thought of them growing up can make me sad...
As a part of me wants to always be able to hold my little boy in my arms.
But with another thought I also get excitement
with the wonder of what his developing personality will be like...
 
Todd has a very deep, raspy voice…
He is super opinionated and is not afraid to do what he wants.
He can be a "little stinker"...
but he also has this super cuddly, soft and gentle side to him.
One minute he can be close to tantrum type behavior for not getting his way
 and then the next minute he is kissing me and wanting to cuddle and say cute things.
 
Both of my boys have been big “mommy boys”
but Todd has taken it to a whole new level…
 
Some things I want to remember
about Toddy at this age include:
 
Todd loves to breastfeed...
I started to wean him off around 22 months because it hurt...
He was not particularly thrilled about this.
 
Todd will say “carry you” to indicate he wants me to pick him up.
 
Todd loves his snuggles at bedtime, nap time and multiple times throughout the day,
 
He will stay quite attach to me when out and about and experiencing new things and places…
He keeps his eye on me to make sure I am close by...
if I am not he will turn on the "waterfall tears".
 
Toddy's favorite things to say to me are “love you so-so much”, “your awesome”, “I love you”, “bubba soo soo”, “blankies”, “cuddle you”, “sorry” “Mommy”…He always loves to say prayers and will fold his arms and keep quiet during them…He never forgets to say “Amen” at the end.
 
Toddy has always been able to melt my heart with his hugs and kisses. His hugs include him fully wrapping his little arms around my neck and nuzzling his little head into me…
His kisses include the cutest little pucker of his lips and the classic sound effect …Mmmmmaaaa.
 
Todd loves his soo soo’s and is happiest when he can carry three to four around at a time…
He likes to alternate them…Sometimes putting two in his mouth at a time.
 
Toddy never really liked his crib…It took me a little while to figure this out…
Around 18 months we started putting him to sleep in a bed
and since that time have not looked back because he sleeps so much better.
 
Toddy still sleeps with mommy and secretly I love it…
He is my little furnace.
My favorite time is first thing in the morning when Ethan will join us...
Ethan gets in close on the other side of me and we all snuggle together for a bit
It is the best feeling to have two happy little boys so content in my arms!

Toddy loves choo choos, trucks, helicopters, dinosaurs,
favorite movies include The Polar Express, Monsters and Disney's Dinosaurs,
favorite book is "Where's Spot",
favorite foods include cheese, pickles, fruit and TREATS,
This winter his favorite places to play include...
Kidscape, Adventures on Wonderland and McDonalds playgym.
Loves visits with Grandma and Aunty Shayna...
Often will look out the window in the morning and see if Shayna's car is home.
 
Toddy’s little personality is priceless…
My mom always tells me that he reminds her of me when I was his age…
Apparently it's the deep voice and stubborn personality…
 
He is quite the stinker…
He still throws his food off his plate or tray when he is done eating.
He will pour fluids out of his cups or Sippy cups on purpose, 
will spout a fountain of fluid out of his mouth when drinking...
Followed by him laughing and giving that mischievous smile of his...
He is notorious for peeing or pooping on the floor if a diaper is not on...
 (this usually happens after bath time or hot tub),
he bites the top off markers,
eats play dough,
throws and dumps toys out of the toy boxes all over the floor just for the heck of it.
If there is something to climb and get into he will find a way…
Toddy has spilt full milk bags on my living room carpet,
oh and just last week a full bag of cheesy popcorn was tossed over the main level
followed by Toddy jumping on the kernels to make sure they were nice and crushed,
knives have been taken out of drawers,
safety gates have been ripped from the wall due to Todd swinging on them
and having a jolly good time.
Todd likes to jump down stairs – thinking that I am ready to catch him.
 He doesn’t like to be held in the hot tub or when I take him swimming
so it is usually a bit of a struggle to keep him safe.
Toddy has thrown some good tantrums also
(I am not use to this as Ethan didn’t ever have tantrums)…
Full on throwing self to the floor, rolling around crying and yelling over the silliest things –
luckily I have only seen this a few times –
 I avoid this at all costs because it makes me feel sad.
However even with this “stinker-like” behavior
I wouldn’t change his personality for anything…
Yes does he wear us out some days…Absolutely…
but that is what makes him Todd-Todd...
so I just try to see the humor in it,
try and redirect him,
work on having better patience and when all else fails and I am spent
I can tag team it with my team mate Nate.
 
Toddy and Ethan have recently started to play together…
One of their favorite games right now is
Toddy chasing Ethan around the house holding a dinosaur making the cutest “roaring sounds”…
The two of them will giggle and laugh away and make a lot of noise…
It is the sweetest sound to my ears and fills our house with a sweet spirit.
 
Toddy one day you will read these blog posts…
I want you to know how much your dad and I love you.
We always talk about you and how amazing you are.
We feel so blessed to be apart of your life and enjoy being your parents.
I am always evaluating my parenting and thinking about ways we can do better...
I just want to make sure I am doing everything to support you in your early life…
Our goal is to raise you to be loving, confident, secure and happy...
I want you to love yourself and respect yourself and others...
I want you to know your worth and your purpose...
I want you to love and rely on your father in heaven...
Soon my role in your life will change...
You will start being more independent and making your own choices...
I know without a doubt that you will be prepared to do so…
Remember it is OK to make mistakes…You will make lots of them!
Everyone makes mistakes...It is a part of life…
The best thing you can do is recognize your mistakes and trials and learn from them,
grow from them and always forgive…
Forgive others but most importantly yourself.
I hope you will always see what we see in you.
You are a beautiful person both inside and out…
I know that if you live your life in a way that keeps Christ at the center
you will be OK, you will not feel alone and you will have forever happiness.
I pray that you will always feel the love dad and I have for you.
I hope you will one day feel proud of us like we are of you.
I know we will make mistakes…Please forgive us, we are trying our best.
You are amazing in every way and bring so much happiness to our world…
Your dad and I have so many fun things we want to experience with you.
 
 Love you forever, like you for always,
forever and ever my baby you will be!
 
Todd in my belly here...You provided Ethan with a nice little perch!
 
Taken the day Toddy was born

Cousin Jessica holding brand new baby Todd
Around a week old - caught a smile already!

 
 
 
 
 
 



Easter 2013